It's not been so bad during the day today - but now evening has come I'm feeling a bit worse for wear. It's occured to me that if someone handed me a joint right now I would smoke it & the more tobacco the better! As I got up at 4pm today I have a long night ahead of me. It's best to take these things one day at a time as they say.

My temper is fraying a little aswell - everyones voices seem much louder and more piercing.

I keep on thinking 'maybe I should just smoke' but I know that's just the nicotine talking

I feel


VERY ANNOYED & hot

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I really was going to have a cigarette but I had got the tobacco too wet (from splashing water on it becuse it was too dry) So I threw it away. Much to my horror I just opened up the bin to see if the tobacco was in a smokable position.

It seems so unfair not to be able to smoke at all, but it's just the addiction talking, Give it 3 weeks and the craving should have fucked off for good. I hope I make it.

"This is stupid" I keep telling myself - it's not the right time really but god I feel awful and I can't stop thinking that I'm going to die horribly. I get almost no enjoyment at all from smoking. Yes, I love smoking weed but that it really taking it's toll and I want to pack them both in.

I decided to start this blog & give a day by day account of my progress so that hopefully I will have something to look back on and encourage me to quit forever. It's the same principal of anorexics being shown photos of themselves to make them realise what they are doing - it's the most effective way I heard.

I quit smoking last summer for about 3 months and it was brilliant. I actually found it very easy having taken literally that Alan Carr book. I was literally skipping down the street the day I decided to pack it in - just like Alan said I would be, and the momentum carried me through for about 3 months. I started again because I thought I could get away with having 'the occasional joint' but it's nonsense, it's all or nothing really. In for a penny - in for a pound. The cravings are just too much in the end, you don't even notice you're getting them.

For the first 2 weeks of giving up I felt amazingly horny aswell, it was immense! My energy levels rose dramatically - let's hope I get to that point.

It's a bit of a myth that pot makes you drowsy by the way - this is something I discovered last time I quit. It's the combination of the pot and the tobacco. Last time I quit - I had a couple of bongs and I didn't feel drowsy at all! It was only when someone handed me a joint that my energy got zapped and I got that 'stoned' feeling.

I feel...

Pretty chesty, energy levels are low. Bring it on!